Thread:KamiOfWind/@comment-26620432-20151018213049/@comment-3436482-20151018222528

Kami, you need to realize you can't worry about other people so much. I'm gonna do what I'm gonna do. If I wanted to kill myself I would, and there's nothing you can do to change that. I control what I do, not you. You don't control what Emmy does, or Fuzzy does, or Jinn does. You can only control what you do. It sucks, but it's the truth. You don't need to worry so much about us, as much as I appreciate it. You don't control our lives. The only thing you can do is be a friend to us. That's the full extent of your power over us. If you feel you can't take that, then you can leave.

I'm still trying to learn this lesson with Karen. I can't tell you how much it hurt to see her in a total wreck like that. It fucking destroyed me. But I'm not about to give up on her just because of that. She's worth too much to me. My job for her is to stay by her no matter what, THAT is what I chose. YOU don't have to take responsibility for that. If you want to leave, that's fine. I'm not gonna judge you either way. But I'm still here for you if you do want to stay. I try the best I can, Kami. It's not easy on me, either. How do you think I've been coping with this entire week. With what Emmy did, all this shit with Karen... I haven't been exactly riding high either. In fact, this entire week has been total hell for me. But I'm not fucking quitting. I refuse to. For better or for worse, that's my choice.