Thread:KamiOfWind/@comment-24629512-20151118035130/@comment-24629512-20151119001018

Ok. You know what? I will be honest about it.

I will stop trying to convince you guys and myself I am a victim. Here is the real reason I want to leave...

I am jealous of all you guys. You guys always seem to be so fucking happy. I am not able to kep myself happy, and seeing you guys having great days every day... It just makes me feel so jealous of you. I sorta wish you guys could become as paranoid and dependant for a little while just so you understood.

Thats why I want to leave. I am sick of seeing all you guys always smiling, always having a good time...

Even if that may not be the case, that is the full, honest, real reason I want to abandon this place. I don't want to feel this way but it is how I feel.